Over Reacted

Year 2014,
Before I end this year,
I had made one decision which would change my whole life.
Not become better of course but worse.
I do not know whether the consequences that I have to face in the future is worth it or not.
But in these few weeks,
I hardly can sleep.
I have to admit that if I were given the chance to choose again,
I will definitely choose the opposite.
Although lots of people gain benefit(dunno whether this is the correct word to used or not><) from the decision I made.
But the stress that I faced in the past few weeks.
And the stress of the consequences that I may face in the future.
That's something too much for me to bear all of it.

I'm afraid that someday,
I'm gonna break down.
And that time,
no one will really understand what I had gone through.
I have no idea why even until today,
I still put others more priority than myself.
I still don't know why I can't be more kind to myself.
And I really don't know in the end.
Is there anyone who truly appreciate it or not.

Someday If I fall,
Is there anyone who will hold me?
haha....
I wonder..?