Friday, 30 September 2016

Sem break of Y3S1

The month of September was great.
This was the month I had sufficient rest plus zero work stress as my internship ends.

Nothing much happened in this month but I spent most of the time thinking and imagine.
I think all the imagination started once I read this manga "Relife".
This is a story about one was undergoing certain experiment and bu consuming a certain drug,
he physically changed to his 18 years old look and have to study at one of the assigned school.
Lots of things happened throughout his study and somehow in the process,
he had changed and influenced people around him,
and inspired by others too.
Most important is that he slowly letting go his past that haunted him for so long.
The manga still halfway, so I couldn't really say whether it is a good story or not.
But so far, I'm still looking forward to the update every Friday.
Here is how the manga looks like.
There is also anime available.





















I have no idea why I would keep imagine how will everything change if I given such chance to go back to my past and start all over again.
Somehow, I was wandering in my imagination everyday.
Thinking how everything will be different.
And the conclusion that I can made from all these things happening is that,
Seems like I'm pretty regret for what I had done in the past or things that I haven't accomplish in the past.
Despite all the imaginations didn't make me feel better,
I understand myself better in a certain way.
Probably most of the time,
Imaginations are just the dreams that we wish to become reality.

In the month of September,
I went back to my dad's hometown with my dad's another family.
I find it quite funny actually when I felt nervous to meet the other family
But the feelings behind funny are just sad and disappointment.
This trip enable me to understand what happened in the past and how this second family was formed.
I get another sister and brother but I doubt will I be close with them.
I don't hate them,
But I don't like them either.
Well, is hard to share something that suppose solely own by you probably. ><
It was a great trip anyway because I get to see my grandparents who are aging and sick.
But it the end, nothing much to be cherish too be honest.
I think the bond is not strong enough when you only able to see someone once in a few years.


(I actually look kinda old in this photo>< but that's the difference between 23 and 6, oh...that is my sis)

Another trip I had in the month of September was with my girlfriend's family to Morib.
It was a great trip with lots of seafood and that was my first time to be half naked and 'swim' in the water theme park.
Well, I can't deny that I'm shy because of my body shape but I really have no idea why I would dare to do so actually.><
But since I had did it, I guess I will be more brave in the future when comes to swimming.
It was really a great trip for me to enhance the relationship between me and my girlfriend's family.
This pretty much summarize my September.

Oh ya,
Before I forget,
I met with my course-mates JS and Suet May.
Jun still working so he can't attend.
It has been a long time since we met each other and somehow we were able to chat from morning until before we leave.><
To be precise is they leave as they need to catch their train back.
We had a great chat on that day.
Just that people changed and things changed as well.
Things no longer remain the same as it started.
And that is the main reason why I'm afraid of committing into a friendship.
Because things do not last forever.
I had a great movie on that day alone after my dinner.








Wednesday, 31 August 2016

实习报告

十三个星期的实习,
在一眨眼的时间就结束了。
在这个实习里,
我真是受益不浅。
非常感谢上司对我的指导以及同事的指点。
因为他们,
这个短暂的实习让我难以忘记。
实在是刻骨铭心。
总结来说呢,
这真是一个愉快的实习。


你妹!
你妹!
你妹!

因为他妈的重要所以必须说三次!
愉快你妹!



但还真的是刻骨铭心,
因为我还真的忘不了你(上司)有多碧池。

在这短暂的三个月里,
短暂你妹!
在这漫长的三个月里,
我真是受尽折磨,
当然是心理上的折磨,
上司还没至于那么变态呢。。。
同学们请别想歪。

操你妈,你这个碧池上司。
总是得空没事做,
做事情要求完美是件好事情,
但你却总是鸡蛋里挑骨头,
挑你妹啦!
一开始说出自己的想法不就好了吗?
干嘛总是叫人自己去想,
当别人做完了又说出自己的看法,
然后叫人家他妈的全部改过。

妈的!
全部叻,
一点丁都没留下叻。
你有顾虑别人的感受吗?
你有顾虑设计师的感受吗?
你有顾虑同事的感受吗?
没有!
都他妈的没有啊!!!
可怜那设计师,
感觉就像被你玩弄似的。
你知道设计有多难吗?
你知道构思有多难吗?
你知道你这样其实会让他失去自信吗?
你都不知道。


你知道你的同事有多讨厌你吗?
你知道她私底下是多么讨厌你吗?
你知道她是怎样诅咒你吗?
你应该什么都不知道。
写到这里,
突然间我不禁同情了你。



好了,
现在没有那么讨厌你了。


《理智版本》
虽然这漫长的实习真的很折磨,
但是我依然学到了不少。
通过别人看我的方式,
我更认识了自己。
也了解了自己的短处。
心里虽然诅咒着,
但是我依然感谢我上司。
你虽然总是多此一举,
但是你依然很照顾我,
也很愿意与我分享你的知识与经验。
所以就算我再怎么讨厌你,
我还是很感谢你。

你让我成长,
方法虽然苦了点,
但是效果还是有的。


接下来,
分享我做些什么事情。
写了一堆 press release(超难写的好不好),

然后一些高层和厨师的profile,
基本上每次交上去的文章都是满满错误的。
这我就不否认了,
是老子的英文太差了。
现在连讲英文老子都怕了,
连部落格都用华文写,
老子华文没很好,
至少好过英文点点。
真是纠结死。。。

然后还有做摄影师,
当然最多的就是跑腿了。
这里跑,
那里跑。
搬这样,
搬那样。
感觉这就是我的最大用处吧。

还有帮housekeeping换床单。
连续帮了四天后,
我再也不敢睡酒店了。
还真是他妈的肮脏。
就算是五星级酒店也没差。
当初应该拍些照片留念的。

然后还有的就是吃吧。
酒店的食物没有非常好吃就是了。
但基本来说还算不错。
包吃就已经为我省下了不少开销。

一些简单的工作就不分享了,
因为都蛮无趣的。
哪有什么工作是有趣的。


                哪有什么工作是有趣的。                        工作很无趣
                                       

这就是我的实习报告啦。
谢谢实习。
谢谢公司。
谢谢碧池。
谢谢同事。
谢谢女朋友听我发牢骚。






Saturday, 23 January 2016

Mask

People asked why did I wear a mask.
I answered them that I was sick.
Is not that I'm ill.
But I'm tired of putting a smile in front of people.

Just to save my energy explaining why am I not smiling,
A simple mask,
And a simple reason.
People stop asking further.

It feels so good to not faking a smile in front of people.
It is tiring to be someone we are not.


I wear a mask.
It act as a shield for me.
For me to be myself.
For me to not pretending to be someone I'm not.
For me to...
Not giving up.

I'm not fine.
But I just don't care anymore.
I'm tired.
But I just don't care anymore.
I'm stress.
But I just don't care anymore.
I wish people care about me like how I care about others.
But I just don't care anymore.
I need help.
But I just don't care anymore.

And by not caring about it anymore.
I feel less pain.
And this is the way I choose not to suffer.

Sunday, 3 January 2016

Wake Up

Is neither the end nor the beginning but a going on.
Year 2015 is not the end and Year 2016 is definitely a beginning.
Everything happens continuously and it sounds new because of the calculation created by human.
But the sun that rise on 1st of January 2016 does not differ from the one on 31st December 2015.
Things do not change and problems still exist no matter how many years passed if we do not solve it.
But we human tend to think that all the problems can leave in the past and we do better in a new year.
How funny it is.

Problems will not be solved automatically but it might just fade as time pass.
But we just leave it aside and believe that someone is going to cover up our ass and problems happened in 2015 will magically be solved.
How naive is that?

Things do not get better but we choose to believe the illusion that blind us.
We are afraid of all the mistakes we did in the past and 2016 is like a whole new chapter in our life where we can start everything in a brand new empty page.
Is that really what people think and believe?
We should stop wishing Happy New Year because nothing is new.
Stop looking forward to better year because there's no such thing in reality.
People should just wake up from their daydream and start to live a life.
The world is not beautiful but it doesn't mean it won't become one.