Smile

I can put a smile on my face anytime~
Is not hard to put a fake smile.
People tend to ask less,
care less.
And things can be solved easily.

A lot of things happened,
until I had reach a point,
where I felt tired to fake a smile.
It hurts deep inside my heart.
It feels tired to be strong all the time.

I do not know why am I going through all this.
I'm tired,
and mostly I'm afraid.
I just can no longer take it,
handle it or cope with it.

Things are pouring into me
and I have no where else to release all these feelings.
For the first time,
I felt the true helpless feeling.
All alone...
facing everything.
And the only thing you can do,
Is just shiver.

You don't know me.
That's why you can be mean.

The best

I wonder did I tried my very best in my life.
Well, every single time when I thought I did my best,
there are still times where I think that actually I can do far more better than now. we

I think I had work hard enough for my study.
But I'm not satisfied.
I think I had put in effort in friendship.
But turn out our gaps are still widening.
I think I had try my best to become a better person.
but I'm still not.

Well, before I come out with a solution.
The only thing I can do perhaps is to just continue work harder.
Harder and harder and harder...
Until the day I break into pieces.
And I shall stick myself back again and try again.
I think life is all about trying harder perhaps.

I want to be the best.
In everything.
I wish I could.
To be the best,
for you.