People asked why did I wear a mask.
I answered them that I was sick.
Is not that I'm ill.
But I'm tired of putting a smile in front of people.
Just to save my energy explaining why am I not smiling,
A simple mask,
And a simple reason.
People stop asking further.
It feels so good to not faking a smile in front of people.
It is tiring to be someone we are not.
I wear a mask.
It act as a shield for me.
For me to be myself.
For me to not pretending to be someone I'm not.
For me to...
Not giving up.
I'm not fine.
But I just don't care anymore.
I'm tired.
But I just don't care anymore.
I'm stress.
But I just don't care anymore.
I wish people care about me like how I care about others.
But I just don't care anymore.
I need help.
But I just don't care anymore.
And by not caring about it anymore.
I feel less pain.
And this is the way I choose not to suffer.
Saturday, 23 January 2016
Sunday, 3 January 2016
Wake Up
Is neither the end nor the beginning but a going on.
Year 2015 is not the end and Year 2016 is definitely a beginning.
Everything happens continuously and it sounds new because of the calculation created by human.
But the sun that rise on 1st of January 2016 does not differ from the one on 31st December 2015.
Things do not change and problems still exist no matter how many years passed if we do not solve it.
But we human tend to think that all the problems can leave in the past and we do better in a new year.
How funny it is.
Problems will not be solved automatically but it might just fade as time pass.
But we just leave it aside and believe that someone is going to cover up our ass and problems happened in 2015 will magically be solved.
How naive is that?
Things do not get better but we choose to believe the illusion that blind us.
We are afraid of all the mistakes we did in the past and 2016 is like a whole new chapter in our life where we can start everything in a brand new empty page.
Is that really what people think and believe?
We should stop wishing Happy New Year because nothing is new.
Stop looking forward to better year because there's no such thing in reality.
People should just wake up from their daydream and start to live a life.
The world is not beautiful but it doesn't mean it won't become one.
Year 2015 is not the end and Year 2016 is definitely a beginning.
Everything happens continuously and it sounds new because of the calculation created by human.
But the sun that rise on 1st of January 2016 does not differ from the one on 31st December 2015.
Things do not change and problems still exist no matter how many years passed if we do not solve it.
But we human tend to think that all the problems can leave in the past and we do better in a new year.
How funny it is.
Problems will not be solved automatically but it might just fade as time pass.
But we just leave it aside and believe that someone is going to cover up our ass and problems happened in 2015 will magically be solved.
How naive is that?
Things do not get better but we choose to believe the illusion that blind us.
We are afraid of all the mistakes we did in the past and 2016 is like a whole new chapter in our life where we can start everything in a brand new empty page.
Is that really what people think and believe?
We should stop wishing Happy New Year because nothing is new.
Stop looking forward to better year because there's no such thing in reality.
People should just wake up from their daydream and start to live a life.
The world is not beautiful but it doesn't mean it won't become one.
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