Contradictory 4

Sometimes I wonder.
Who am I truly to others?
Friend?
Brother?
Classmate?
Course mate?
Schoolmate?
Stranger?
Asshole?
Someone who is just too kind to be used?

I really hate those feelings.
When is holiday,
we are strangers.
And when the school start again,
we are friends and ya, I'm gonna find you.
What is your result?
What the tips for mid-term and final?
How to do the assignment?
Is it really nothing that we can talked beside academic?

I know that university are place to prepare you in the future.
Hence, we all have to be strong, trust nobody, be realistic.
I wonder where all the true friendship gone.
I wish that I was independent enough to be alone,
but I was addicted to the feelings of surrounded by friends.
Contradictory~
I wonder....who am I to you, my friend.
I wonder~~~