Contradictory 5

Things started to become better I guess.
At least I tend to think lesser.
Perhaps is because I'm busy with other stuff only.

Decision made by today, 

Action taken today,

Gonna make a great impact in the future.
I dunno what will happen,
but if come to worst,
I really don't know whether I can handle it or not.
I seems to be strong in front of others.
But deep inside,
I just a normal people.

Faking that image too long, 

just make me so tired to continue.

Things are hitting me,
one by one,

harder and harder.
I really don't know how long can I stand it.
How long can I face it.

How much I still can take it.

And the moment if I break down...

Perhaps I will never able to stand up again.

Just feeling so tired.
I do know that the choice is in our own hand.
We all make our own decision and no one decide what we want.

But I can't.

Every single decision and action I made,

All is affected by a lots of factors.

I'm strong,

but I'm not.

I'm happy,

but I'm not.

I'm fine,

but I'm not.

I really don't know,

how long,

I can hold it.

I'm just too fine in others eyes.

Nobody really know what I'm going through now.

Contradiction.

Pathetic.