A different angle

I have been making my life quite miserable for the past few days.

Thinking of things which basically I cannot solve at all.

And some of them are even out of my control.

Or things that none of my business at all.

Torturing my mind in all kind of ways.

Making myself moody for dunno what reasons.

Thinking too much,

care too much,
putting too much emotion,

depend too much on others.

Saw one quote which quite inspiring.

To not let others be the source of your happiness(sort of).

Maybe I had been depending too much.

Okay...I admit.

I have been depending too much.

Is like too too much.

Okay.

Is fucking much.

Maybe is time to just be myself back.

The calm one.

The observer who always see from different perspective.

The one who instead of making his life miserable, make his life much more entertaining by observe others.

The one who see things more clearer than others.

The one who feel like everyone around him was like a fool.

The one who think that friends are not that important.

(Which kinda hard because friends are extremely important.)

But I think.

I used to be an asshole.

So, basically I have no idea what to do.

But there are still people saying that I'm an asshole now.

Maybe there is no different at all.

Haha...

Well, I will just try harder then.

To make myself more happy and less asshole as well.

Steady.