Lost

I feel lost.
Very lost.
I do not know where am I heading.
I do not know where is my destination.
And I do not know why am I still walking.

I'm not sure things that I'm doing now are right or wrong.
I'm not sure things that I'm doing now are worth it or not.
I'm not sure,
What am I doing.

I'm breathing but I don't feel alive.
I'm awake but I'm dreaming.
I'm not sure which one is the reality and which one is the dream.

I can't get out from it.
I'm trap.
I could not find the exit.


Or I choose to not find the exit?

Is it I'm the one who refuse to step out from the trap?
Is it I'm the one who refuse to wake up from the dream?
Because in my dream, 
Pain does not exist.