I'm not fine

时间能冲淡痛苦，但是，我并不想用时间来治愈一切。

It was a torturing semester I would say.
I  know things will be hard, but I never know that I can't take it.
I thought that I was strong enough to deal with all shits,
I thought that pain is inevitable and suffer is just a choice.
I thought...
I thought I will be just fine.
But everything is just a thought.

I'm tired.

I had tried my best in coping with everything that I should but I failed.
I started to fall apart and break into pieces.
I would say I'm fine if I were asked in those days.
At least, I still can force a smile on my face.
But I can't now.
I'm not fine.

Pathetically,
I only can still tell myself,
Everything will be fine.